My motivation



It's week four and I'm still kicking.  I don’t think I have ever felt so sick and good at the same time. I definitely have more energy even though most of my muscles are sore. I thought about giving up several times this week, but I am sticking with it. I never thought this was going to be easy but I didn’t expect it to be this hard. Then again, the things worth working for never really come easy, right?

I feel like have worked harder this week than ever before.  I am trying to do what Paul suggested by eating 6 smaller meals a day and adding more protein to my diet. But I’ve been feeling sick when I eat and while working out. I’ve been told this is normal, just my body’s way of getting used to it all.  I just hope I get there soon J Don’t worry though, I am not a quitter!

My highlight this week, besides starting a new position at work, was boxing a little with Paul.  It made me feel like I was beating him up a little for a change!

Although I feel like I worked harder this week than I have other weeks, I only lost 3 lbs (for a total of 17). I guess I feel like I should have lost more. But I did loose so that is a plus.  More importantly I am determined to make this healthy life style a permanent picture in my life! NO ONE can reach all their health goals in one month, right!?

I am reading this and thinking that this all sounds negative, so let me give you some insight on why I think this is good for me and what keeps me motivated. I joke with most people when we talk about me working out and how things are going with Paul. I always say I am going to go get beat up in our sessions. Now he doesn’t really beat me up, but he does push me in our work outs, which I need. Even if I get sick on him though, he is supportive and encouraging. Even when I tell him he is trying to kill me or say “I can’t.” He proves to me that I CAN and I am still alive.  He hasn’t killed me YET….lol.

The most important motivator in my life will always be my daughter. I told you about my mom in my first blog. I loved my mom more than anyone when I was growing up. She was an amazing woman.  Loving and caring, not just for me, but for everyone who know her. But in all my memories of her, she was extremely overweight. It was hard on me growing up, because people do judge others on the way they look. All I know is I loved her. When I was really young others would tease me because she was overweight. I worried for her.

So when my daughter told me she wanted me to be healthy, how could I not flash back to the little girl I use to be, that loved her mom so much, and worried about her all the time? I don’t what that for my daughter. I also want her to know she can do anything she wants to and if she works for it! Though my struggles, she will learn that health is important. It starts with taking care of yourself first, so you can take care of those around you. If I want her to be healthy, I have to show her what it looks like.

Another thing that keeps me motivated is Alexis, Lindsay, Paul, a few members (I am sorry I don’t know all of your names yet), who have made me feel welcome at Anytime Fitness Waunakee. Your smiles, conversation, and encouragement make me feel like I truly belong, even if I feel like a fish out of water sometimes. And all of you that have read my blog, and left words of encouragement. I have never felt so astonished or such a sense of pride that there are so many of you reading my thoughts, struggles and accomplishments. You will have to ask Lindsay for the details but all I remember is there have been over 500 visits to the blog, all over the country and in several other countries as well! I am going to leave you all with a post I found on Anytime Fitness Waunakee’s Facebook page today. It encouraged me and I feel I need to share!

                                                                                               

By: Nicole Nagrani IFBB Bikini Pro