"All our dreams can come true--if we have the courage to pursue them. " - Walt Disney

I am back once again, working hard.  I can start training with Paul again in October.  I think I need him…LOL.  I have lost another 10 lbs, on my own but still fell short of my goal for August. But, hopefully at the rate I’m going I’ll reach it before the end of August.
 

Today I was told by Paul that I need to do the stair climber for 5 min. Believe me, I was thinking to myself are you sure?! I can barely do 4!  But I was able to make it. Who would have thought?  I know it doesn’t sound like much, however I couldn’t do the stairs at all before I started training.  So I am pretty proud of myself. I am dreading when Paul will be back to training me full force again. Lord help me….then I’ll be back to running around the building to…just watch I already for see this.

It took me a little longer to break down the wall but I am now moving forward again.  I realize that sometimes I just let things get in my way, and I can’t let that happen anymore.  Like dating for instance, it’s just a complication I don’t need right how. It is too distracting and makes me lose focus on my goals.  Besides if I want to be with a healthy person I need to make myself healthy first.  Right?!?!

The other thing that was making me loose focus is my daughter.  Now that she is not in school, she’s wanted me to do more things with her.  To keep up with her, I have to build up my energy and endurance so that means I have to continue losing the weight to get healthy.  I often have to remind her of this.  So spending time with her has sometimes has to wait.  I tell you this is a hard one for me.  Sometimes it feels like I’m neglecting her.  I know I am not, but it just feels that way.  So to compromise I will spend an hour just waking with her each day.  This way she can do some of the exercise with me and I can still get my two hours in everyday!

 

Support and encouragement lead Dorothy to make a break through...

Not sure where to begin, things have been really hard on me lately. I guess because of it all, I got pretty depressed and started on a down world spiral. I cut down the days at the gym and as a result haven’t really been focusing on my diet.  I can make all the excuses I want, but the thing is I was only lying to myself. I haven’t gained any weight but I haven’t lost any either. The hardest part is not only do I feel like I let a lot of people down, but I let myself down too. So, now it is time to pick myself up and get back to it.

I do have some wonderful people who have really chewed me out. At first I was mad at them, I wanted to say screw you I am doing the best I can and to leave me the hell alone. But the fact is I needed them to say the things they said to me even if I didn’t want to hear them. Yes it did make me mad (and even cry), but I was mad at myself for not keeping with the program. The truth is I wasn’t doing what I needed to do to reach my goals. You can’t sit and wish to be healthy…I spent 9 years doing just that. If I want to be 160 lbs I have to do the work, nobody else can do it for me. But I am truly thankful for all of those who care about me enough to say, get your ass going again! I know I keep thanking people, but I have to say it again. Thank you Paul! Not only for chewing me out, but for NOT giving up on me when I was ready to give up on myself. Thank you to Jordan, Ryan and Alex for your encouragement and support. Even though I feel at times I am taking this journey on all by myself, I’m really not. There are some wonderful people who come out of the wood work when you least expect it. They become my new healthy friends and have added to the already wonderful support system I had.  I love all my family and friends (even my new ones)!

I am looking at this road block like a wall, and it’s up to me to break through it. It is not an easy thing to do. But the more you do it the easier it gets. I will break through this and I will get back on track. Please don’t stop reading, I have more good things to come, I know it. Good things are already happening to me—I have accepted a new position which means I can go back to training with Paul! So say tuned y’all.