Support and encouragement lead Dorothy to make a break through...

Not sure where to begin, things have been really hard on me lately. I guess because of it all, I got pretty depressed and started on a down world spiral. I cut down the days at the gym and as a result haven’t really been focusing on my diet.  I can make all the excuses I want, but the thing is I was only lying to myself. I haven’t gained any weight but I haven’t lost any either. The hardest part is not only do I feel like I let a lot of people down, but I let myself down too. So, now it is time to pick myself up and get back to it.

I do have some wonderful people who have really chewed me out. At first I was mad at them, I wanted to say screw you I am doing the best I can and to leave me the hell alone. But the fact is I needed them to say the things they said to me even if I didn’t want to hear them. Yes it did make me mad (and even cry), but I was mad at myself for not keeping with the program. The truth is I wasn’t doing what I needed to do to reach my goals. You can’t sit and wish to be healthy…I spent 9 years doing just that. If I want to be 160 lbs I have to do the work, nobody else can do it for me. But I am truly thankful for all of those who care about me enough to say, get your ass going again! I know I keep thanking people, but I have to say it again. Thank you Paul! Not only for chewing me out, but for NOT giving up on me when I was ready to give up on myself. Thank you to Jordan, Ryan and Alex for your encouragement and support. Even though I feel at times I am taking this journey on all by myself, I’m really not. There are some wonderful people who come out of the wood work when you least expect it. They become my new healthy friends and have added to the already wonderful support system I had.  I love all my family and friends (even my new ones)!

I am looking at this road block like a wall, and it’s up to me to break through it. It is not an easy thing to do. But the more you do it the easier it gets. I will break through this and I will get back on track. Please don’t stop reading, I have more good things to come, I know it. Good things are already happening to me—I have accepted a new position which means I can go back to training with Paul! So say tuned y’all.