Learning to believe...

At the beginning of last week I was still restricted on what I could do physically, because I aggravated my back problems helping my soon to be ex-husband move his things out of my house.  I missed training with Paul on Monday because of this, which made me a little angry.  But I refused to let that detour me from my goals and I was back at it the next day.

On Tuesday, Paul had me outside doing my exercising. I was running in the park. Yes, me, who said I would never run again, was outside running through the park. The further I ran the more I thought, “I can’t do this.  I am never going to make it.”  But I did.  I’m still trying to prove to myself I can, every day.  But I’ve realized I should never say never again. Believing in myself is hard sometimes, but I am getting used to it.  Also, feeling comfortable about doing exercise outside has not been easy for me. This new program is pushing me in all areas I guess.  Like Paul gives me a choice!

Paul also had me play games this week in training.  Although I don’t know if I think his games are very fun!  You would think playing a kids game, like Memory, would be extremely easy. Not so much after you got done walking a mile and you have to play it while doing pushups.  It’s not so easy to remember when you know if you get it wrong you have to do more pushups.  But I survived.  Looking back on it now, it was kind of fun.

I realize that sticking to a diet when you have a child and other people living with you is hard.  It was even harder over the holiday weekend. To top it off one of my roommates is working at a sub place here in town. I love subs, just not the ones that are healthy for you. So I’ve been trying to find other food I can enjoy while they are eating. I’m not perfect and I do slip. Like getting a muffin with my morning coffee and having Paul walk into the gas station while I was buying it!  I really didn’t think about it until he said something to the affect that muffins are just cupcakes without frosting. Not the healthiest choice. That is what this is all about: Learning how to change my diet while working out right. But the more you try the easier it becomes.

So here are my accomplishments this week. I took another 2 minutes off my mile, walking, biking, and on the elliptical. I have lost another 4 lbs (for a total of 27) and I’m still going. I have to continue to thank my friends and family and every one who keeps pushing me and encouraging me thought this journey.  It has helped more than you know! Also thank you to Ryan Z., who comes in to do cardio with me sometimes, and to Paul who pushes me even when I tell him “I can’t.” You’re all amazing and I love you for it!