Taking the good with the bad

So I’ve been struggling all week with quitting smoking.  I am not saying I am perfect, but I have been trying as hard as I can.  My weakest point this week was when I was determined to buy a pack of cigarettes. I got in my car and said, “This morning was too stressful. I need a cigarette.”  I drove to the nearest gas station and walked up to the door. Guess who happened to be there?  None other than my trainer Paul. I swear he shows up whenever I want to make the wrong health choice. He has some kind of radar or something. So I bought a diet Dc Pepper instead and went to the gym to work out.

I’m a little frustrated this week, mainly because the scale hasn’t been moving much.  Paul thinks I might not be eating enough. So I’ve been keeping an even more detailed list of what I have been eating so Paul and I can go over it on Monday.  He told me if you don’t eat enough calories that you will have a hard time losing weight.  He also said that I am at the gym enough that the scale should be moving more than it has the last few weeks. I thought I was eating too much, but never thought I was eating too little.  I’m still trying to get enough protein in my diet, but it is hard for me to remember that I have to get it in, especially after working out. You are told most of you life that eating 3 square mills is import part of life, so getting used to eating 5 to 6 times a day take some time to become routine.  Especially when you get busy taking care of children, or when you’re not at home. But writing it down does help.

One of the highlights of this week was that my daughter Rachael came to watch me work out. She wants to work out even more now but doesn’t want to wait until she is 14.  Paul let her run around the building with me and that made her very happy. She has even called her grandparents to tell them that she got to run with me. Another highlight to this week:  I haven’t been able to walk through a department store or grocery store since I hurt my back. We always take for granted the simple things until we can’t do them any longer. I had to use one of those remote controlled carts to get around. Yesterday I am happy to say I was able to walk though a Wal-Mart store with out needing help. This is a milestone for me. Next stop Mall of America…

My back injection has been postponed for two weeks. They are really careful when doing these injections they will not do it if there is any signs of infection in you body. So I had to have a white blood cell count done, and mine were elevated. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised because everyone in my house has been sick all week. I have felt fine. But now I have to wait two weeks to get this injection.

I have never felt so much support and love as I have now, so I feel the need to thank all of you who are cheering me on and supporting me. I was at Alexis’s celebration this weekend and was greeted by so many of her friends and family. Most I have never met before, and they all were encouraging me and telling me they are readers. You all took me by surprise, but thank you!  And congratulations to Alexis for competing in her figure competition this weekend.  I am proud of you too!