You have your highs and you have your lows...

This week was better than last. I’m still trying to get over Bronchitis, but I was at the gym every day. It feels like I am starting all over again. But it is not as hard as when I started the first time.

Paul is having me step up on things on my own now. I’ve been working the AMT machine and now I get to add the stairs in too. I think he is trying to make me love them, but I still hate them. I do it though because that is what he tells me to do. I guess I pay him for a reason. He thinks he is training me for the 2030 Olympics. Sometimes I think he is a little crazy (just kidding Paul). On the plus side, I have taken another minute off my mile.

Remember how I keep telling you how Paul shows up when you least expect him to. Well this time I got out of Waunakee and he still there! We ended up going to the same beach over the weekend. Even on my day off from the gym, I felt the need to go running, climb some stairs, or do some squats because he was there. Funny right?!?!

One of the lessons I’ve learned during this journey is not to just sit around wishing you could, but to actually do something about it. Since I’ve started working with Paul, and at Anytime Fitness, I am so much healthier. I have lost almost 40 lbs so far. But it is not just the weight that I am loosing. I feel better about my life, my daughter’s life and everything overall. SO if you are reading this and were like me, thinking life is too busy, it’s too expensive, or I just can’t. Trust me, just take the step into the gym, and keep going. No none of this is easy, and there are times I just want to say to hell with it all. If you think about it, it shouldn’t even be a choice. You need sleep, you need water, and you need to eat. Taking care of me and feeling healthy and happy should be a need as well. I know all the work has to come from myself; I have Paul to show me the way, and so many loving and supportive friends and family for encouragement. You’re all beautiful in my eyes and I love you all. But no one can make me do this, not even Paul that job is mine, and I am doing it.

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I let excuses and rational control my week this week. Yes, I let myself slip a little and it turned out to be a lot. We all have excuses, and bad weeks but I let them affect me like I haven’t since I started this journey. It took me getting chewed out by Paul to realize just how bad I really was this week. SO I have to pick it back up next week, that I know for sure. I actually gained a pound this week. Believe me, I feel so embarrassed having to actually admit that.

I didn’t stick to my diet at all to be honest with you, I said to myself that I’d been doing so well that I could treat myself to things I know I didn’t need. Then, I just spiraled out of control from there. But okay I did admit to having a bad week so now it’s time to get back to it. More progress is around the corner. I promise will be back next week with better news.